Friday, June 24, 2011

my lover~^^

mr.goh saik sien..my manager in DZI KINGDOM..
erm..actually i started like you when you still work in gurney my dear..hahaha..you wont know that because i wont tell you because you have thick face skin..heehee..
1 JAN 2011~ me start working in DZI KINGDOM
you fetch me everyday going to work and go back home..because we are working from 10 to 10 everyday!!!  i enjoy my work when you are there..
14 FEB 2011~valentine!! 
dear remember that day??haha..we go to information center to get the valentine flower..we are friend at the moment..and i feel so paiseh going down there with you..but i think that you enjoy that..haha..summore say wanna hold my hand..haha..that time really didn't expect that i will be with you so happily today~xD
MARCH~i started avoid myself from you
ouu~that was the bad thing i ever done in my life..i keep push away a man that like me so much!!
i know that you like me..but you just keep flirting me my dear..you din say anything pun..=.= then i just geh siao geh siao lo..i like you..but when i see you i just cant..cant..how to say leh??cant let myself be with you..funny hor??maybe because we are colic gua..??i dunno pun..you la..me bei dong eh mar..then you must zhu dong la..haha..i like to spent my time with you..then i arrange our timetable always me and you same shift..hahahaha..then you can fetch me..have lunch with me..go supper with me..xD we started   to be together LIKE couple..haha..din hold hand..din hug hug..din kiss kiss..always go dinner go movies..haha..until one special day..
18APRIL2010~someone tell me he xi huan ren jia..hahaha..
we go for a movie that day..after that you send me home..i know that something is going to happen..i can FEEL that~!! then..a message lai liao..wow is a beautiful sajak..after read that i dunno how to reply pun..tiok say thank you poet lo..haha..then remember what you said?? "hey ren jia, wo hao xiang xi huan shang ni le.." i gong ki..then start screaming in my heart..how how how??arghhhhh!!!
then i ask you to give me sometime..dear i really scare that you will hiam me because of my skin problem..i am really scare of boys at the moment..but you tell me that i will live happily with a man..i believe that..i really believe that...
23APRIL2010~hold my hand
i was writing a note early in the morning..i said: i found a guy that i think he can hold my hand forever..i like him as well..he wont force me and he always love me like a baby..thats what every women wants..suddenly i feel that i cant miss out you..a good man that i met and loves me..i was so lucky..if i can have you..so i wrote down..if you hold my hand, lets be with me~..then..in that night, dunno who open my book and tell you i wrote that, you hold my hand!!! i just be with you so accidentally..haha..but~great accident~^^
MAY 2010
i start my school life..and work part time..so the time i can spent with you become lessen and lessen..i miss the time we work together..i can see yo every single minutes..now..when i think of you..when i miss you..i will only cry..i like you..and i found myself love you more and more..sorry sometime i might be act like siao char bo..laugh loudly..cry sadly..i dunno why i will be like that..i miss you my dear~T.T
24 JUNE 2010
miss you like crazy~
today my darling told me that he want to marry me IF we still together after 5 years..=.=
in my heart..i am very confident of that..haha..because i love him and wont change..i love you babe..please be sure that you treat me good la babe..i am your future wife you know??  i am very small gas eh lo..i change dy after be with you..i cant see you flirting around..heeheehaha with girls!! maybe even boys??haha..i think i mad liao..because of you!!! i am looking forward for our KL trip..hahaha..must be very fun~~muacks..love you..

Saturday, December 18, 2010

难过

刚刚跟mama提了想买下小舅车的事,她说好,因为很便宜。。那时我还蛮兴奋的。。
阿公来了,mama说:我们一人出一点。。
阿公说:你以为我赚很多啊?不用留点给自己啊?
我勉强地笑了笑。心中暗自打消了这个念头。。不懂为什么,那时候就好难过。。
我们都习惯了,习惯依赖阿公和mama。。什么事都向他们开口。
又有谁想过他们要向谁开口?他们没钱时,是谁给他们?
为什么老是让他们为我们的事担心?他们付出太多了。。
我开始想了。。想到他们的辛苦,想到如果没有他们,就更加更加难过。。
锁在眼眶的泪快满了,模糊了视线。。心中装满了无数个小石头,好重好重,我快窒息了。。他们开始了自己的谈话,时不时轻拍我。。
泪水不小心滴出来了。。我关起我的脸,装睡,听着两老谈话。。说话中有些埋怨的语气。。我更伤心了。。鼻涕和眼泪不停留下。。
多想他们赶快离开这个房间,多怕阿公突然拉开我的抱枕。。
他们出去了。。关了灯。。我爬起床,又开始想了。。
之前,我想,我要去学院读书,我要有一辆车。。
现在,我想,我要赚钱,没有钱,我什么都别想要!!
写到一半,突然发现我妈正翻阅我的日记本!!
我立刻抢下,并骂她看我的东西,眼泪不停洒出,把她赶了出去。。
过后才发现我是老羞成怒。。=.=
我不想让妈咪难过,我不想她自责,所以不想让她看见我写什么。。
我明白自己的家庭背景不好,所以,我要自己努力,不再花阿公和mama的钱。。

Friday, December 17, 2010

missing♥

feel like missing someone so badly~
i know..i know i shouldn't..but what can i do??
it was just happened like that..i cant control myself..
and i noe..u will never noe that..and no one will know who u are..
unless one day u really be with me.. haha
i feel good..when i miss u..
so, i think i will continue that..
the feeling was so special that ur heartbeat will really speed up
even only when u miss him..
what i can say is: oh my god, i fall in love again..>.<